Almost a Love Letter

I wouldn’t say friend.
Friend implies a relationship that’s two-sided.
Friendship is too strong.
More like companion.

You were my companion so I’d never be truly alone.

I held you, and you soothed me in return.
You and your sweetness.

Only you knew my real pain.
Only you could take it all away.
Only you knew my secrets: all of them.

I needed you.

I reached for you.
And you were always there.

We laughed together
and forgot the world around us.

No pain. No fear. Just us.

I traded years of my life just to have you near.

We did everything together.
Movies. Parks. Vacations.
Everything was better with you by my side.

I loved you.

And you killed me. A little more each day.